Capery: Oktober 2010

Montag, 25. Oktober 2010

626. / Forgiveness

I try to block it out
I try to push it away
I try to repress the memory

But still there is an unbelieveable sadness
And my heart gets ripped apart
Everytime I think of you

I never got the chance to say good bye
I never had moments to cry
I had to be strong, show that I'm tough
But the only thing I wanted is saying good bye

I never got to tell you that I'm sorry
For everything I did in all these years
Now I want to ask you for forgiveness
But you're gone and you won't come back

I never had a chance to say thank you one last time
Even though you were the most generous person
Your last thought of me must be that I was gone
And I fear so much that you hate me for that

I would like to let go
But I don't even feel worthy enough to say your name
I hope I dind't forgett too much, I wanted to tell you
And I hope you can accept these words wherever you are

If you ever get a chance to read or hear my thoughts
I just want you to know I love and miss you

625. / cry

I cry every fuckin night
Trying to fall asleep
Thinking of you and me
Crying

What might I have done?
Do you still love me?
What role do your new friends play in this whole situation?
And many more questions

You changed, you know
I don't know what happened but I think part of the love is gone
My trust is gone but also my jealousy
Slowly it starts feeling all numb

It makes me doubt if
This is still the right thing
Or if it's not what it used to be
Should we continue?
Actually, I can't much longer
Not one more week crying myself to sleep
Something has to change

I don't know what to do...

Sonntag, 24. Oktober 2010

624. / Bitch

Hey bitch, you really have to brag about it all the time?
I don't need to hear it one more time, it's just enough.
I know you're the better twin and everyone love you
But that doesn't give you the right to make yourself even better
And put others down

Freitag, 22. Oktober 2010

623. / Gotcha

Sure, it's okey, I gotcha.
Not returning calls
Or even answering messages
Not even thinking about me
And What I would feel
Or what I would think
About what you do with your friends
You just lost your interest...
Well, it's not alright
But I just have to handle it
It's just sad about the vacation
I was really excited about everything
Now it feels like something's tearing me apart
There's this pain in my chest
Like someone ripped it open
But there's nothing left to do
I would not beg you
Or ask you

I'm scared of falling apart

I'm scared

622. / pissed?

Okay, now I'm really pissed, or sad. I just don't get what it's all about. You hanging around with others doing things you refused to do with me. I mean, do you really want to make a fool out of me? My ass! I just don't get why. And now I can't concentrate because I have to think of it all the time. My only thought is, what did I do wrong? I just don't get it. I hope you'll tell me why.