626. / Forgiveness

I try to block it out
I try to push it away
I try to repress the memory

But still there is an unbelieveable sadness
And my heart gets ripped apart
Everytime I think of you

I never got the chance to say good bye
I never had moments to cry
I had to be strong, show that I'm tough
But the only thing I wanted is saying good bye

I never got to tell you that I'm sorry
For everything I did in all these years
Now I want to ask you for forgiveness
But you're gone and you won't come back

I never had a chance to say thank you one last time
Even though you were the most generous person
Your last thought of me must be that I was gone
And I fear so much that you hate me for that

I would like to let go
But I don't even feel worthy enough to say your name
I hope I dind't forgett too much, I wanted to tell you
And I hope you can accept these words wherever you are

If you ever get a chance to read or hear my thoughts
I just want you to know I love and miss you